Calm Down, Heart

Calm down, my beating heart. All is not lost as was proven by a dear friend. I know how you’ve always believed that good things only happen to other people and never you. The thing is, you have to see and recognize all the blessings that have come your way so far. I know you want more, you can’t help it. But take a moment to stop and turn around and see the many good things that have been showered to you. Be thankful and grateful to the life, career, friends, and colleagues that were brought around you. Now another path has been opened and you just have to pave your way through it. The prize being offered is possibly one of the greenest you ever imagined. Aus? Not bad, right?. Walk forward because you will not be able to forgive yourself if you don’t. You need to test the waters and brave the tide should it appear and threaten to swallow you. There’s an opportunity being dangled and baited in front of your face. There is no shame in showing desperation and grabbing for it like a rabid dog whose tongue is hopelessly lolling about. Calm down, heart. I know how you fear rejection and failure. I know how you bristle at the thought of getting your hope so impossibly high only for it to later take the fall and crumble to irreparable pieces. That has always been your reason why you keep to yourself and learned not to hope.  It is better to have tried and failed instead of having done nothing at all. Move forward. Just bloody hell keep moving forward! It’ll get tiring, exhausting and draining. Things are bound to get real messy. You will bleed and weep. There’s no getting around the bushes this time. You have to run forward and ram straight to the thorns. All the woes and fear and apprehensions, lock them all away and focus completely on the tasks ahead. For you are made that way, molded to continuously bounce from place to place, grown to want only the best, and guided to always want. Going for this would not mean being ungrateful to the present and what it has bestowed upon you. This would not be a betrayal on your part. This would just be you being what you are and going for what the universe stated can be yours.

Thanks to my very dear friend,   Ryan,   for giving hope and sharing the love.